I am bitch hear me roar!

Breathe in......breathe out..... breathe in..... breathe out...... It's not working!
Things have been so crazy that yesterday I forgot that there was an Amerks game. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? I can't. I love hockey and I forgot about a home game. Work has been so consuming that I forget things that I have to do. Such as...... I had to run to BJ's to get snack for Bud's hockey practice last night. (snack mom again) So after I get Bud to practice and bring in the snack, I leave for the Amerks game. The hubs was there and took over, nothing like tag team. I get to the Amerks game and for some reason my heart is not in it. I am not concentrating on the game. After the second period I leave. I get home about 9pm and carry in the remaining juice pouches. The hubs says "why didn't you leave the extra box of juice?" I told him I did and he said they were short 3 pouches. There are 15 kids on the team and I left 20 juice pouches. He said there was only one box of 10. I was upset. There were 3 kids that did not get juice. Then he says Bud got sick at practice. He has had a cough since Tuesday morning, and after practice last night he coughed up so much phlegm that it required the garbage can. EEWWW!
Well I called the team manager and told her that I brought two boxes of juice pouches. She said that she saw a box in the hall and did not put two and two together until I called her. Some older kids (9-10 year olds) went in to our kids (5-7 year olds) locker room and took their snack. I felt and still do feel bad that some kids did not get juice. They practice hard and the parents I am sure count on juice for their kids after practice. I know I do.
Well, to continue my saga, Bud was coughing all night and at 2am he calls for me and says that his back is so hurting when he coughs and he is now running a fever. So I administer the ibuprofen and rub his back. He is crying that it hurts so much. I feel so bad for him. I get the heating pad out and for the rest of the night I am rubbing his back and putting the heating pad on his back. I get to work an hour late and a co worker says good morning. I replied wit a F-you. It was uncalled for, but I am tired and really far behind in my work. So I am a bitch today and I am not sure my brain can handle much more! I have emotional stress, work stress and sick kid stress. Calgon take me away. No wait, never mind that makes me itch and I do not want that stress.

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Curiosity

A long time ago I was emotionally hurt by one person and scared both physically & emotionally by another all in the same year. 1990 was the worst year in the world for me. I don't mean my best friend slept with my boyfriend, or the jackass broke my arm before I got smart and dumped him kind of hurt. It goes a lot deeper than that. One of those people has resurfaced. Not that they are looking for me, but in my conversations this persons name came up and I choked on my spit. No, really I did. If I had liquid in my mouth it would have gone flying. Apparently the shocked look on my face opened up the window for a series of questions, and the person asked do you really know "x"? What could I say. I am not a liar. I said "yes, and it was a long time ago". "Really I'd call it two life times ago". I guess from what I am told "x" lives close by and has a good life. I did not get in to former names and how I know x. All I said was just that it was a long time ago. I am glad for x to have a good life, I have a good life. Correction I have a great life. I have no complaints. No regrets (is stupidity a reason for regret?). Anyways.....for far too long this has been eating at me ( a few hours). Curiosity is dangerous. There are several dimensions to this. Do I say "hey I haven't seen x in ages, we should get together" Do I want to know how x is doing? Do I care? Do I wish "x" was remorseful? yes and no. Has this impacted how I live my life and how I treat others absolutely. For the past 16 years this had had an impact. If I were to see x I would want the biggest apology in the free world? Would I would want x to say that this has been bothersome for 16 years? yes. Would it happen? probably not. Is there anything that x could say or do to change my current life? Not a chance in hell. It is possible that x will cross paths with me in the near future probably. Believe it or not my son may need to cross paths with x. Would he know him? no. Would he remember me? not based on looks, but yes x would remember. Do I think that we could be friends? not sure. Do I want to? not sure. Do I think that this is over? no. Do I want it to go anyfurther? no, not under the current circumstances. Do I secretly wish x was am emotional wreck? unable to get on with life because of the actions taken? Sure, but life is not a soap opera. So as I sit here reliving all of those emotions, and the scars start reappearing as if it were yesterday I am curious, and we all know what curiosity did to the cat. Right?

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Eyelashes lead to cleaning

Whoda thunk that this would be an issue?
Me that's who.

I went to my friends house to pick up some make up that those ladies in the pink car sell. Note: they do not give away pink cars anymore, they are grey. Anyways.... I go over there and in the course of talking with her, after getting my pre-ordered blush & mascara I blurt out "ya know, I think I should try a new look" Well that gets me a whole bunch of "look type" items. They are these cards with samples of eye shadows, blushes and lipsticks. They are VERY cool. I have been trying a new look every day for a week. Here is where the eyelash thing comes in. The new mascara that the pink car company sells is now apparently a "lash extender" as well. For those of you with glasses (like me) a "lash extender" is a horrible product. Every time I blink the mascara brushes up against my glasses and leaves a black/brown mark on them. So, for the first ten minutes that it is on my lashes I have to clean my glasses. Now you might be saying to your self well duhh momyrox just leave the glasses off for ten minutes. Do you realize what kind of catastrophe can happen in ten minutes with my glasses off? Not only do I pay premium dollars to have the super duper ultra thin lenses so that I can see, I am as blind as a bat. No joke. So, asking me to go without my glasses is a massive accident waiting to happen.
My mornings always go something like this.
get up, shower, get Bud up (if he is not already), gel hair, get him breakfast, get myself dressed, get Buds clothes out (unless he is in a dress myself mood), start to put on make up, clean up breakfast dishes, finish make up, get Buds socks (because I always forget them...don't ask!), start hair, get a scream from Bud (he can't find something that he needs at school that day) go help Bud, finish hair, tie Buds shoes then get out to door. So you see all the running in and out of the bathroom that I do, and that it requires my glasses.
Now, in all of this I get those pesky lines on my glasses from the mascara and it makes me nuts. So I have to clean them. Now you may say just don't wear the mascara. I can't do that I am trying a new look.
So, now I do not like the new mascara because it leads to lash lengthening and that leads to cleaning.

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Another what? Sell what? Jeesh!

I thought I was going to be super busy this weekend. I was not, and I am glad. We had an Amerks hockey game on Friday and on Saturday Bud had his hockey game. We went out to dinner and came home. Sunday was just Bud & Mommy day. We watched a movie at home and played hockey inside. We went out to dinner and had a good time. Went grocery shopping at the big "super box" store and I was not impressed. Clearly nothing exciting.
We (Bud) got another invite to yet another birthday party. Will the madness ever end?????
I am also hosting a Southern Living at Home party at my house on January 30. I never have hosted these parties and here I go getting myself involved in this. I have no idea what they are, and a co-worker decided to start selling this stuff. I always told myself that I would not do this. My house is not equipped for this sort of stuff. Well guess what. Here I go. I managed to go to tons of these kinds of things, even buy from friends having a "book" party, but I have now crossed in to the realm of hosting. I will do it this once and that is it! No more. I managed to go over 5 years and not host anything that involves soliciting money from friends. I, however ask my friends to tell me when they are selling stuff, because I will buy. Go figure.

So, there you have it nothing going on.

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I spoke too soon

Since last Friday things have been absolutely nuts!

My job is crazy busy, it is year end and month end all in one shot and there is just me to do it. UGGHH! Bud and his commitment to Hockey is just that a huge commitment. We have games and practices all the time. Now we have tournaments coming up. One is in two weeks and one in April. Birthday parties are coming out of the woodwork. We had one last week and one is in two weeks and...... today we find out there is yet another on the same day in two weeks and the EXACT same time. We already committed to the first one (since the invitation came a week ago), and the second one is a nephew (invitation 9 days before party). I am not one to back out of commitments no matter what. My word is my word unless there is a major emergency. So I have guilt!

Anyways....... Bud has been skating so well, and really enjoying it. He is so neat to watch on the ice, as are all of the kids. Some times they crash and burn, but it is so neat! Do I sound like Eddie Haskel? Swell.
We had a birthday party to attend this past Sunday, it was sooo much fun, and since I am sooo behind the eight ball I was shopping for the gift for this party the day of party. I opted to have a pre-made chilled coffee drink that is sold in the cafe at a large retail establishment at 2:30pm. This was fine until I got home after the afore mentioned party and felt the need to become....brace yourself.... dun da de dah..... Drawer Woman able to clean out a childs dresser and closet in 1 hour and still have the energy to work on some of my drawers as well as my closet. I also had enough ambition to...ok hold on to your hats... cook dinner. Yes, I said it I cooked dinner. Now before you start to panic no, it was not Thanksgiving or Easter. It was a random day of the week. No, I have not got malaria or some sort of wacky illness, I have not been taken over by aliens, I just had coffee after 11:00 am. So, when all was said and done I returned to my normal self and went to bed at 10:30.

I had a hair appointment and cut short while employing the nicest girl highlight the grey to carmel. She is great.

On the another front with the new year in full swing, I am very busy volunteering, with the camp for disabled children in the area. Creating a database of donors and directors, and volunteering on a board for another not-for-profit organization. Busy busy busy.
AHL hockey has been on the road for the past two weeks and there have been no games. There is one this Friday, but not another one for two more weeks. Whew.

Now my drama is nothing compared to snarky. Her pops has been having an extended visit in his local hospital. I know that everything is taking forever and I am very concerned about you, but I will not bother you with my emails. Work, other work, and home are very demanding and I want you to know that I am thinking of you every day and prayers go out to all of you (mom, pops, snark, the idiot, tbtine).

So, I will continue on my merry way and hope that all is well.

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Blah blah blah that is what is going on.

There is nothing going on in my life to warrant any type of post. After a month of hiatus Grey's is back on, bud is back in to the hockey thing after a two week break, my work life is still me on the verge of my wanting to stand in traffic.
I was looking for the commercial on youtube for Verizon. Have you seen the one where the dad is talking to his kids and says oh is that the new cherry chocolate lg and the girl goes yeah, then he looks at his son and says what did you get, and the son says I got the env. The dad then says what did dad get? and the girl says ahhhh aftershave. the day says no! Dad got hosed. I LOVE that commercial. I always stop what I am doing to watch it. If it were on youtube I would have put it on here, but it is not.

so that is it, nothing exciting going on in my world!

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Shit is a bad word

On Friday we are crusin' down the interstate to get to the Amerks game and out of the blue the small voice in the back of the car says "shit is a bad word" The hubs and I look at each other pause for a minute, and before the hubs freaks out I say who told you that? He proceeded to tell me the other child's name and the hubs freaks out and says we do not say that. In our house if you hear the word damn, then you know things are bad. We are just not of the swearing kind in our house, and especially in front of our child. I may type out something here, but I will not say it at home.
I digress..... We bring this up to the teacher and she says I am so glad that you brought this up. They were unsure of what children heard it, and did not want to draw attention to it in the classroom. HELLO!!!!! Teachers!!!!! Teach children what is inappropriate when it happens in the classroom. The hubs said if he ever hears that again he is going to get out the lava soap.
Lesson learned!
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Time flies

I am on the look out for my child. He is 5 has light brown hair and is about waist high. Oh yes, he has tendencies to scream for no apparent reason and does not sit still at the dinner table to save his life. If you have seen him please replace the now polite, 5 year old that is at my house who is sitting at the table and asking to be excused. The screaming has gone away, which is why I am surprised that I can not find my child. It seems overnight at the ripe age of 5 I have a new child. As we were sitting at the table for dinner I said to him, "excuse me, where is my Bud? Have you seen him" The reply I got was "Silly mommy, I am right here." To which I exclaim " Noo, My child never sits at the table nor does he talk like a big kid." "Well" he proceeds "I am now 5 I am a big kid" I start hootin and hollerin like it is a party and I am reprimanded by this polite 5 year old by him reminding me that there is a time out chair for me if I do not behave. I thought this day would never come, and in the same token, I am sad that it is here already.

enjoy life it goes by too fast

It's here ready ot not

Things I want to accomplish in 2007

Loose 25 pounds (inspired by snarx)
Drink more water everyday
Enroll bud in Kindergarten
Keep my car that is finally paid off running for all of 2007
Appreciate the hubs more (he does EVERYTHING)
Visit more with my friends.

It may not seem like a long list, but it is. They are goals that I CAN reach, but will I?

May you all have a Happy Healthy New Year.

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Santa comes!

Santa came to our house on Christmas eve. We did not get to sleep until 2:00 am. Then we received a call on Christmas morning that was the wrong number at 4:40am. Get back to sleep in time to hear Bud shriek at the top of his lungs at 6:00 ish Mommieeeeee daddddyyyyyy Santa came and brought me slippers filled with candy! Thoughts to myself.... he can never get up early ever and today he is up 2 hours before the sun. I mumbled something and tried to go back to sleep. He had not ventured out to the living room to see the presents. He was in his room. Still screaming that he could not believe that Santa came tippie-toed in to his room and left him candy. At this point I was so freggin tired. I said something that resembles go look at the tree. I heard it come out of my mouth, but I could not believe what I said. Just how is that going to let me sleep an additional hour. I was doomed. Then the scream fest began. Look at all of the presents for me. Mommy get up! Daddy come on look! All the while he is pulling off the covers. I asked him if his slippers were on, he said no. Whew! That gets me an extra 15 seconds. He has them on and once again Mommy get up pleeeezzzzeeee. Daddy come on pleeezzzeeee. So up we go. Staggering in to the living room. To be honest this is the best part. He looks at everything with the light on and his face is as bright and he is beaming with excitement. We get coffee brewing and he eats breakfast before we open anything. He gets to open his stocking and said "Mommy you are right Santa brings underwear, I always get underwear" Yes, my child and you always will! He apparently is a Sabres fan since he got some Sabres things as well.
So as I sit here trying to recover from what feels like a hangover due to sleep deprivation I will keep things short and sweet.

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Right there is the baby!!! SEE!!!!

All is quiet before the first prayer in church and all of a sudden "....arrrppp" then a small voice says "excuse me I burped" multiple snickers form the two rows around us. I sink in my seat.
But it's not over church has just begun.
The Christmas Eve service there is a part where the kids go to the front for a message with the Pastor. Bud goes up there, and the pastor is talking about being Shepard's. He proceeds to talk about the Shepard's going in to the night with faith to find the baby Jesus. He calls the kids to follow him up and down the aisles in the chapel and look for the baby. Well only my kid says three steps in to the intended long walk "Right there is the baby!! See". This would be one of the parishioners newborns in a car seat. The minister lost track of what he was doing for a bit and said "no not this baby". Bud says "you said a baby" The Pastor was not going to continue that conversation, so the Pastor said "lets walk" and continued on up one aisle and down the next to the front of the church. The pastor speaking all the way saying where is this baby..... gets to the very front of the chapel. The pastor exclaims "look, here is the baby" Bud not missing a beat says "I found the other one first" I was embarrassed and sunk 2 levels in my seat. The hubs is laughing....What can you do???

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last post till after Christmas.
Just a heads up since my house is a disaster, and I am not ready for Christmas yet. I have in years past been done before Black Friday and saved that day for toy shopping only, but nope not this year. I am so far behind. I will leave on my lunch today and get what I need to finish up. There is a bit still.

So this is a special message to everyone.

May your Christmas be filled with love and kindness. I wish you love, peace and happiness.

Merry Christmas!

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Christmas Bummer!

This past Wednesday was Bud's turn in goal for his team. Each kid, if they choose, gets one practice and one game in goal. He had been practicing at home all week. He loved it. On Monday we found out that the game scheduled for 12/30 was cancelled. We (the hubs & I) did not have the heart to tell him. I did not want to break his heart on Monday. It was his birthday. Well the announcement was made at practice. The game would be cancelled. All of a sudden big HUGE tears started to well up in his eyes, the lip starts to quiver, then he sniffles a bit, and there is goes, the tears fall and the crying begins. Not the wailing kind, but the kind where his heart has just been smashed to pieces. Now we have to give the gear to the next person in line. He says "Nooo mommy....we get two times" sniffle sniffle "We get one practice and one game". I had to explain that the game was not going to happen. All of the effort he did to practice was for nothing. I had no better way to tell him that it was cancelled, he did not understand that word, so I told him that the ice was broken. He understood that. He was still sobbing and I felt awful. So now the gear is gone. I am hoping that he will get a chance later in the season, but there is only 3 months left and not that many games scheduled. Talk about a Christmas bummer! Learning disappointment early in life is a good lesson I suppose. Still a sucky one.

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5 Years ago right now

Five years ago right now I was blessed with the most precious boy in the world. Happy Birthday Bud. Thanks for making mommyrox's life a whole lot brighter. I love you with all my heart.
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He shoots....he scores!

In his first ever appearance in front of over 8,000 people at the BCA, Bud scores his first goal ever. The only goal of the night by the Red Sabres I might add. The crowd went wild. He was raising his arms up and chanting. High fiveing (sp) the other kids and then the buzzer sounded, it was all over. I was wise enough to get it on tape, but not wise enough not to jump in excitement when he scored, so it is a bit bouncy at the end.
Live and learn.
6 days till Christmas
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Ready set go....and go.... and go....

I think I have calmed down a bit and I am feeling less stressed. Tonight Bud plays during the intermission at the Amerks game, and the ENTIRE extended family is going to be there. Then he has practice tomorrow at 12:30 and his birthday party at 5:00, then hockey at 7:30 he will be late for the second hockey. THEN Sunday morning he has a game at 9:30. keeping in mind that to get to either of these hockey places it requires a 30 min drive minimum and then there is getting the gear on. Somewhere in there I need to finish my Christmas shopping, and decorate the darn tree. We went out back last night to get our tree. The Boy Scouts were selling them at the fire hall and we walked out back picked it out and carried it home. Breathe in......breathe out.... breathe in.....breathe out. Oh I almost forgot. Since Bud's birthday is on Monday, I have to bring a "healthy" snack to school for his birthday. Please explain to me how you sing happy birthday over a fruit platter. Where is the candle? In the watermelon?
So now I realize that not only is hockey very expensive, it is very time consuming on the weekends. Now I realize that I do not have to go all the time, and that it is not the end of the world if we do not go, but I committed to a team that we would be there. I will not break my word. I stand by the committments I make. I may be late, but I am there.

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The power rangers are mine muhaahaahaaha

Dash out the house at 6:35 am and realize that I must dash back in for a check that I need to deposit. Darn it! dash out again and get in to the car. I am going to be the first person at Kmart. It is 5 minutes to seven and I am standing ouside the door and another lady strolls up. Oh no. Could she want a power ranger? Then a guy comes up. Are you kidding me what do people need to got to Kmart for at 7:00 on a Wednesday if it is not for a one day sale. Stratagically I am planning my dash in the store. Then a guy comes out and says "yeah it's about 10 more minutes" I look at my watch. I s he crazy. It is 2.... 2 minutes till seven, then I look at his shirt and he is the carpet guy. What the heck does he know. Then.... here she comes.... she opens the door. And away we go. All of us in the store. We all head in the same direction, but the lady breaks off to go elsewhere, and I stop at toys, the guy continues to automotive. Whew. I do not have to beat any one up today. So I look at the toys and there are no signs on them. What ones are buy one get one. Oh no. I go and grab a flyer and I see what ones they are. I make my selection and then she comes over with the sign. She puts it on the expensive power rangers and I look at her and say Oh is it the big ones? She says yes. I add to my collection and proceed to the check out. Then the girl rings me up. Lo and behold..... the Big ones are NOT buy one get one. I said the lady in toys put the sign on those ones. They override the price and then proceed to double charge me. Ooops an easy mistake and we get that fixed and off I go. Woo hoo I am the coolest santa in the world. because after the green power ranger on the motercycle all he wants is stick tape! (That is for his hockey stick)

Sorry for the delay

The temporary delay in posting is due to the fact that I am completly crazy and have yet to figure out how to get it all in.

This delusion of hockey being only on Wednesday and Saturday was just that. There are games on Sundays all over two counties. HOWEVER........ he looks so cute..........

Had this picture not been posted on the web site I would not post it here, but being that it was, here it is. I will claim the one second from the left.

That compounded with the mega birthday party this weekend I am just about done. I have yet to buy my son a birthday gift. I have decided that the Fisher Price digital kid tough camera is an expensive item, and therefore he will have to wait until after Christmas. The item is out of stock all over the place, and I have had enough with getting the baby alive and the elmo. You see my brother decides at the last possible minute that he wants a Baby Alive and TMX Elmo for my nieces. So what does the good aunt do. She calls every Target andToys r Us with in 50 miles and the second they say "yes we got it in today" I run like hell out of the office to get to the store to get them. Now ya think that my brother would be thankful. No. Not a snowballs chance in..... well you know where. Thank goodness my boss is cool enough to let me go. He is really cool SOME times this is one of them.

Now for Christmas, I have to make a mad dash to Kmart tomorrow morning at 7:00am since the Mystic Force Power Rangers are going to be BOGO Wednesday only. If you plan on being there I may run you over to get there first. I know when they open and I know the layout of the store. You all have been warned.

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TSO

There is so much to say that I must start with Thursday of last week. I was invited to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra. Holy cow! That was an AMAZING show, and if you are ever given the chance to see them. GO! Do not hesitate. Do not pass go. Do not collect 20o dollaers, go directly to the concert. Just Go! 'nuf said. It was great. Simply amazing, The light show, the guys that look like 1985 big hair band rejects were great. The dancing & singing girls that like Great White groupies swoshing their hair were OK, but I would go anyways. there were several jaw dropping moments. Worth every cent and the parking fee.

Just my thoughts

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....and away we go!

As the hustle and bustle of the Christmas Season is upon us I would like to take a minute and reflect on my Thanksgiving. I had a medium house for the dinner/lunch itself, but I was bursting at the seams for dessert. We had my dad's cousins come over for dessert. All 5 of them in addition to the 7 we already had in the house. That makes for cramped quarters. It truly was wonderful to have all of the people at the house for Thanksgiving.

Now on to Black Friday. I woke up 3 hours before 0' dark thirty and went to the toy store and secured my bargains for Christmas 1.75 hours and then proceeded to Target. What a shopping nightmare that was. There were hundreds of people in line and all I had were 2 board games. I saw the lights for the express line and thought to myself no way... they can't be using those lines when there were seriously over a hundred people in the line to check out. Lo and behold they were "express lanes" and they were taking people with 7-10 items or less. OOhhhh this is good. I bypass the line that was literally 3 hours long and I check out in 15 minutes. There was this guy who was grabbing 7 items at a time out of his overflowing cart and checking out over and over again. Very clever that man. So there we have it folks. We were in and out in 1.5 hour. Then we go to the mall. Not so bad there. Tons of deals to be had at Macy's. BonTon was a line nightmare. 2 hours in line. I did meet a bunch of people who were shopping at Kohl's and had bargains galore. for me there was nothing that I needed there. I am not at the stage of needing the expensive electronics so I was not needing to be in line for a "limited quantity available" items. All in all I was done by 1:00 ish and I was happy.

Saturday I ventured back to a different mall and found more bargains, and that concludes my shopping. NYC countdown 5 days.

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