Monday, October 30, 2006
Bud has informed me today that since he is almost 5 that he does not need Bear Bear any more. Bear Bear is his blankie bear similar to the picture. When I asked who said that he proudly exclaimed "I did!"
So Bear Bear thank you for the many nights of comfort to Bud and for the one night I drove 20 miles in the rain to deliver you to him at his sleep over so that he could sleep.
As the blood pools from the dagger that feels like it is piercing my heart I will bid you a fond farewell, and a whole hearted thank you.
Bud is growing up. (tears rolling down the cheek)
I did see Laura Bush and she is just lovely!
Cheetah Girls, well all I can say is 8,000 pre-teen girls screaming Cheetah*licious is a cruel form of punishment.
Bud is so excited for Halloween. I am going to take the afternoon off so that I can take Bud to his school Halloween party. He has already missed the trick-o-treat at school, and I do not want him to miss the party. Then we will go trick-o-treating after dinner. I am trying to decide if we are going to go to the senior center or to the neighborhood. I am sure that the seniors would appreciate him, but it is driving that I am deciding on. That would leave the hubs at home.
Friday, October 27, 2006
On a crazier note:
Guess what I am doing this Saturday (all before 4:00pm)? Come on guess? Betch'a can't in a million years guess.
First, I am going to the public market. (I am pretty sure that you woulda guessed that)
Second, I am going to see The First Lady Laura Bush! Her hubby may be a dope, but SHE is different. (didn't see that comming did ya?)
Third, I have buds skating lesson.
Fourth, I am working the Cheetah Girls concert.
Now 1 & 3 you might have guessed, but 2&4 completely off of my standard radar.
Once again overloaded, but I have Sunday to recover. That and Saturday night. Since Cheetah Girls will be over by 4:15.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Happy Birthday Grandpa. I know that this one is going to be a tough one, but we love you and want you to have a happy birthday.
Halloween is just around the corner, what is really disturbing is the fact that the Christmas decorations are out. That is just wrong! They should not be out until after Halloween. Period. While I am shopping for my Halloween stuff I do not want to be rushed in to Christmas. I understand the deal with Thanksgiving, but Christmas...come on. Wegmans the large grocery store in my area has the trees out already. Some stores will start their piped in muzak as well on November 1. This is craziness. The advertisements for the toys are on the TV as well. This morning during cartoons there must have been 5 commercials for new toys. Most are the power ranger and barbie variety. Now I do not mind the toys, but the target marketing time sucks. I am trying to get dressed for work, and Bud screams at the top of his little lungs "Mommy mommy come here quick!" I run like a lunatic in the room and he says "look mommy.... I want that." My reaction is to tell Santa. Mommy does not buy toys for the sake of buying. Since this is the first year of fully comprehending the Santa and gift bit, I think that we now need to look in to letting him know that He will not get all of the toys that he wants. 29 days till Black Friday!
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
I am sorry I am sick all of the time. I know when we got married we said in sickness and in health. I did not realize that the sick days would be far greater than the healthy ones. I am sorry that the sickness has been so long. Never once have you complained and I am sorry that you got the raw end of the deal. I am sorry my medical expenses have taken up almost all of what money we had for "fun" stuff, and I am sorry that you have to deal with it all of the time.
Second to Bud.....
I am sorry that mommy is sick all of the time. I am sorry that when you want to go out and play I can't take you all of the time. I am sorry that when you want to ride your bike or rollerblades that you have to do it in the driveway, because I can't go out this time of year. I am sorry that mommy sometimes can't even get up and read you a book because I have a hard time breathing. I am sorry that at the last minute I have to change our plans when I get sick.
Third to my friends......
I am sorry for endlessly detailing how crappy I feel most of the time. I am sorry for being that "friend".
Here is your free pass. All of you. If I have annoyed you enough and you are sick and tired of me being sick and tired all of the time here is your chance. I am not going to be getting better. I have an illness that will never go away. I have to deal with it daily and it sucks. I do not want you to have to deal with it, but part of being around me is knowing that everything I do has a direct impact on my illness. No matter what I eat, drink or the meds I have to take. The activities I can do or not do. Where and when I can be outside.
I have taken some time away from this blog in order to get things in order. In order to figure out what I need to do in my life. So here is it out in the open. Here is your chance. I will not hold any grudges.
This is what I needed to do so that I can now......
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
No, really how do you do it?
This was asked of me yesterday. This week is another one of those weeks. Yesterday I forgot that there was a luncheon for some of the office staff. Our CEO was nominated for business person of the year. Anyways, I had to run home and change my clothes since I felt that my dress slacks and sweater were too casual for this event. I had a meeting and a dinner Monday, I have a meeting tonight, and I also have Bud's hockey practice. I will be late to the practice. I have our Rotary fundraiser tomorrow night, and have to start planning a 5th birthday party for Bud. So how do I do it? I have a great support system. My parents are awesome at helping us out and the hubs is my biggest fan. He does so much to make things run smooth. That is how. But I can't say that with out it sounding so simple. I fit in my friends here and there. I have lunch planned this Friday with miss ribail and I have not seen her in....well..... gosh... it's been so long that I can't remember. We planned it a month out so that we could keep a clear calendar. That is how nuts it is. I have also decided that we need to get a huge dry erase calendar for our kitchen so that we can keep our life on track.
That is how it's done.
I have not blogged since I have been so busy at work and home. I finally just took a break today. That and I have a mega cold A- freakin' gain!
Friday, October 13, 2006
Then there was this building where a lot of people died quite a while ago and nothing has been done to the space because everyone is arguing about what should be done with the space. Instead of having a simple park with benches to go and enjoy. There is this issue where tons of dollars are being spent on what is going to be done. Should it be an oversized memorial, should it be a new building, should it be nothing. There are also politicians making a boat load of money off of this.
The difference in my mind is the politicians. They are elected bodies and are afraid to loose a re-election and therefore will not make a decision.
enjoy life (the simple life)
editors note: I just read an article by the spokesperson on the series of events in PA and this sums it up perfectly ......"We just did what we think we need to do as people of faith. Our actions are more important than our words."
have a great weekend
Thursday, October 12, 2006
For the past couple of months I have had this issue where I can not sleep. I am tired at 6 or 7pm then when 9:30 comes around I am UP. Wide freakin' awake. The worst part is that I am up until 2am where I then proceed to get 5 hours of sleep. Only to get up and take my sorry ass to work by 8:30. I have yet to figure out how to curb this. If I go to bed I toss and turn so much that the hubs gets annoyed. Taking sleeping pills is out of the question. So I will just deal. It will end soon right?
The boots you see here are what I call my hooker boots. I know the whole heel thing is off, but that doesn't matter. I have them on today with this little flowy black skirt, and everyone in the office thinks I look cute. I am thirty something and I am still being called cute. I guess I am old enough to get ma'amed and young enough to be cute! Works for me. I think.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
For those who really know me, know who I mean. I have a smart friend and I mean really smart friend (he used to be a co-worker & friend) now he is just a friend. He is smart in the context that he writes this:
"......He stands, as those few others, a looming presence in my life, offering the possibilities of what could be accomplished to afford the noncompliant environmental solace. He confirmed for me, that genius, like CO2, has a smell that takes your breath, and allows an average man to do spectacular things."
This is his piece of brilliance. He is leaving and I am going to miss him. We do not hang out, nor do we make visits to see each other, but he is a great person nonetheless. He has joined the ranks of Snarky & LaDolce. Me ever loving co-workers who have moved to a better place while I sit here. Afraid to go, or complacent in my life, you decide.
I have expanded my circle of on-line friends and I can not keep in touch with them all, so I had to do some updating here as well. You will find that anyone can post. While this may be a temp thing, for now I want to see how it goes.
Monday, October 09, 2006
Friday, October 06, 2006
Last night while I was in the bathroom (No this is not gross) I took a look in the mirror. OK that may be gross, but anyways I noticed that there are more grey hair then before. This is very disturbing to me. I used to be able to pluck them out in a fashion that would not leave me bald. Now it appears that the brownish color is slowly caving to that of a hue of grey. This is hugely disturbing to me. I do not want to look like my grandma and I do not want to have to spend 150.00 to achieve the look I want every 4 weeks. Thus I have not colored my hair in weeks! Hence the noticeable amounts of grey. I am in the 25-34 age bracket and I do not want this to be my reality. It is bad enough I get ma'amed, and I am getting those lines around my eyes. Polite people call them laugh lines, I do not laugh all that much, so there is no laugh line there. It is old lady wrinkle. Plain and simple. My friend who laughs a lot has laugh lines and they look like that. Mine do not. I guessthe time has come, I have to wake up and smell the coffee.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Hockey starts tomorrow for the Amerks, We got our season tickets in the mail yesterday. Looking forward to that as well.
Side note we are going to the public market Saturday and I have never been. I have been told it is a great place to shop for stuff. We are going to go before practice.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
I am raising money for The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society as a participant in their Light The Night Walk. I am walking in honor of my mother-in-law, xxxxxxxx, who has courageously fought the battle against lymphoma and is currently in remission. Each donation helps accelerate cures for leukemia, lymphoma and myeloma and brings hope to the patients and families who are on the front lines of the battle against these diseases.
Now I ask, what would you do? I would never ask her to buy anything nor would I send such an impersonal email to my friends soliciting money. I think it is rude. I am not the queen of etiquette, but I think that I have the basic skills of what is and what is not in good taste. I feel for her mother-in-law. I wil pray for her mother-in-law, but if you want money from me do it right and not like that.
That is it for now more to come!
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
So tell me, what is the matter with people? Why would someone hurt such a person.
THEY WERE LITTLE GIRLS! THEY LIVED SIMPLY!
While I'm at it.....why would anyone hurt children. Verbally. The big fat piece of horse patoot in FL is another one. Sending messages to kids working as pages. Until you are 18 you are a kid. I do not care how mature your parents say you are, or how far away from your parents you live. Until you are 18 you are a kid. Adults should know better and if you act on inappropriate behavior you deserve to be punished. Especially where children are concerned.
I do not care what your role in society is. All the more shame on you. Hiding in rehab is no excuse.